Fibromyalgia Sucks!

I'm supposed to be cleaning, looking at cars, visiting Dad in the hospital...and yet, here I sit. I just can't get motivated today. Fibromyalgia is a horrible thief. It has taken away my energy, my outlook on life, and my health. Everything hurts and doing the most normal of chores brings more pain. To everyone else, it might appear that I am just lazy. I would think the same thing if I saw someone acting like I do. But it's just too much! I wake up in the morning and the only thing that gets me out of the bed is the knowledge that I can take a nap later. That's sad. I'm missing out on life and not enjoying the life I do have.

A Sad Reality

As I do almost every other day of my life, I am sitting in the big, burgundy recliner, watching "The Price is Right" (Dad's choice, not mine), and checking to see if anyone commented on my Facebook status entries. I know...anyone who reads this is going to be jealous of my life. It IS exciting.

I want things to change. I want to lose 50 lbs. I want to have something to look forward to. I want to find someone to share this wonderful life with. I work at a job that offers no benefits (no vacation, no sick days, no insurance...nothing), then come home to take care of Dad. No vacation for that, either. Is this the way I envisioned my life when I was young?

This is the only time in my life that I felt I had no options.

Uncle Gene

We just buried one of my favorite uncles this past weekend. It could have been a very sad occasion, but I learned that Uncle Gene had great faith and was ready to meet Jesus when he died. You may ask, "how does that make it easier?" Because Uncle Gene loved God and knew Jesus as his Savior, there is hope. Not in the sense that the world sees hope, but a knowledge that Uncle Gene is with God and we will see him again someday.

Even so, his face keeps popping up in my head. Uncle Gene was a happy man and made others happy around him. He had all the latest "Olie and Lena" jokes. He spread his joy wherever he went and loved the babies. He was actually pretty good at predicting the sex of your baby, too! He always said it would either be a girl or a boy and he was always right! lol I will miss him.